My dear friend 🐝,
God has given me another message to deliver to you, and it all started with a crazy dream that He gave to me. Before I tell you about the dream, here is the message from God to you. It is a passage of scripture about King David from the 2nd book of Samuel the priest. David’s army had just defeated Absalom and his army in their rebellion and insurrection against King David:
“4But the king covered his face, and the king cried with a loud voice, O my son Absalom, O Absalom, my son, my son! 5And Joab came into the house to the king, and said, Thou hast shamed this day the faces of all thy servants, which this day have saved thy life, and the lives of thy sons and of thy daughters, and the lives of thy wives, and the lives of thy concubines; 6In that thou lovest thine enemies, and hatest thy friends. For thou hast declared this day, that thou regardest neither princes nor servants: for this day I perceive, that if Absalom had lived, and all we had died this day, then it had pleased thee well. 7Now therefore arise, go forth, and speak comfortably unto thy servants: for I swear by the LORD, if thou go not forth, there will not tarry one with thee this night: and that will be worse unto thee than all the evil that befell thee from thy youth until now. 8Then the king arose, and sat in the gate. And they told unto all the people, saying, Behold, the king doth sit in the gate. And all the people came before the king: for Israel had fled every man to his tent.”
The meaning of the name, “David,” is “beloved.”
The meaning of the name, “Joab,” is “Jehovah is father.”
The meaning of the name, “Absalom,” is “my father is peace.”
The gate is the place of judgement. It is the city hall. It is the Supreme Court Building and the Capitol Building all wrapped up into one.
Therefore, as this message is given to you, the person of Joab represents myself. I am your messenger on behalf of God the Father, and the person of David represents you.
You have been stricken with the loss of your peace. You are in travail of grief. You are in great sadness. I have been feeling it for a while now, but these last six weeks have been an exceedingly weighty burden on my soul. (I am not talking about the heartbreak that I feel for you. That is something that is always there, and as my love for you grows so does my heartbreak.) This is a burden that is beyond that heartbreak. I can feel that you are in a state of turmoil and sadness, unlike anything that you have ever experienced before.
As I said to you in my recent post (“Is Partial Plausibility the Same Thing as Impossible?”), I have never wanted to make you sad, but I know that I have said things to you that have made you sorrowful. I deeply regret that my words have made you cry, but as I also stated, I have only ever done so out of love. I have always been truthful with you. I have never hesitated to tell you the truth, even when I knew it was going to be something hard for you to hear. I respect you and love you far too much to hide information from you. Whenever I believe that you need to know about something, I always tell you about it, truthfully and entirely. How many times have I trusted you with information that was not deemed to be appropriate for you to know, according to the judgement of others?
I deeply regret that I have made you sorrowful, but it is better that you know the truth.
“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”
– Psalm 30:5
However, I know that my words are not the only source of your present misery. Something far more painful has wounded your spirit, and I feel the weight of it on my own spirit. I find that I am now praying for you twenty or more times each day. Neither are these simple prayers. They are arduous and tear-filled prayers, and many are lengthy and exhausting to my mind, spirit, and body. I am skipping meals. I have been losing weight. I do not understand what it is that is going on with you or what is happening in your life, but it must be very serious. It feels to my own spirit like it is something that has wounded your spirit as no other experience that you have ever had before. Therefore, I have been asking the Lord to help me understand why this has been happening and why you are in such turmoil. So He gave me an answer, and this dream is the beginning of the answer that He gave me:
I found myself laying in a bed in a Mediterranean styled beach-town condominium. I presume that it was a vacation rental house. It had a very open layout, like a jumbo studio apartment. The bedroom, the kitchen, the dining area, and the living room were all in the same open space. I was partially clothed, in my skivvies, and with my legs under the covers. There were a couple of other people in the kitchen, but I do not know who they were. Although, in my dream, I felt as if I did know them, whoever they were.
As I lay on the bed, S.C. entered in the front door and walked across the room towards me, all smiles. (Since I do not want to use SC’s real first name in this post, I am going to call her “Soraya.”) With cheerfulness, Soraya sprang on top of the bed, tossed back her long dark hair, and laid down with her face opposite of mine! I was a bit startled, but I was also very happy to see her. It has been a year and a half since I have last seen her, and over six months since I last exchanged text messages with her. I miss Soraya dearly, and it makes me very sad that I have not heard from her in so long. However, this close encounter was not quite what I what I had in mind. I was somewhat alarmed.
Then she kissed me!
It was courteous kiss, but it was a kiss, nonetheless. I was suddenly very much on guard, and I resisted immediately. I pulled my head back a bit with alarm, and she made a gesture with her face, her hand, and her eyes, as if to say “Don’t be alarmed! It was an innocent kiss!” I thought to myself, “OK? … this might … possibly … be a cultural thing???” … so I relaxed a bit, and I smiled a friendly smile.
Then she kissed me again! But this time it was more than a courteous kiss! I got up straight way out of the bed, and I began putting on my pants and my shoes! I do not know what she said to me after that, but she left the condo and turned to the left to go to her own condo, which was adjacent to mine. I do not understand what clue it was that I was looking for, but I followed her into her condo. Whatever clue it was that I was searching for was, apparently, it was some kind of clue that should help me understand why she had deceived me. She seemed to have expected that I would follow her, but she did not attempt to approach me again.
After I entered into her condo, I sat down on the edge of her bed to finished putting on my shoes. Then Soraya left her condo abruptly, while I was still putting on my other shoe. Just as she had departed, your pharmacist friend walked into the condo looking for someone. Needless to say, we were a bit surprised to see each other. He was especially surprised to see me standing up from off the edge of the bed in Soraya’s room and buckling up my pants!
I had no idea that any of you would even be there. Then it dawned on me that Soraya had not come there alone, but that she probably had come to meet you all there. As I watched his face staring at me in bewilderment, I did my best to gather my wits together. Then I asked him, in a very calm, concerned, and friendly voice, “What is the problem?” He looked very perplexed, and he stammered, as he had no idea what to say. Therefore, I asked him again, calmly and kindly, “What is wrong?” In exasperation he replied in a gasp,
“It’s that Elmira!!”
Then I awoke.
I sat there for a bit wondering over how specific and striking this dream was to me. Why would I dream that Soraya was trying to kiss me? Why was her husband not with her? Why was your good looking friend in my dream? Who was he looking for? Was he looking for you, or was he looking for Soraya? If he was looking for you, then where were you? Maybe he was looking for someone else? And who on Earth is Elmira?!
I tried to shake it off as just another dream, but this one stuck with me. I could not stop thinking about it. Hence, I began to pray about it, and I read the Bible … and I prayed lots more and read and studied more. It was during this process that God showed me the passage from 2nd Samuel 19:4–8, and He impressed upon me that this dream was the answer that I had been asking for. This was great! … except that I did not understand what it was supposed to mean. Over the course of the last three weeks, God has revealed a few additional things, but for the most part I have only come to comprehend certain things that I would call inferences. They are things that seem to fit the situation, but I have no idea if they are actually true or not. All I can do with them is wait for God to clarify what these inferences might mean in truth. One of the few things that I was able to nail down is that the meaning of the name “Elmira” is the same as for “Soraya.” The two names both mean “princess.” Is it possible that your friend was actually referring to Soraya and not to someone named “Elmira?” That just does not make sense to me, but how could I ever know, unless God were to reveal it to me?
Nevertheless, there is one very important principle that God revealed to me on August 9th (almost three weeks after the dream), which is really what this whole post is about. I am confident that, in time, God will continue to reveal more truth to me about this dream, but right now, all I have is a little different perspective of your situation based on some inferences and one very important truth to share with you. It is so frustrating to be weighed down with such a massive spiritual burden for you and not have any clear understand as to why it should be.
I am not about to speak to anything concerning these inferences here in this post. I am only telling you what I know for fact and what God has instructed me to give to you. Yet, one more piece of information that is to be included is the constellation Scorpius. God only knows what the significance of this is, but He will certainly reveal it to us in time.
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With all of this in mind, I can say this. In my dream, I was put in a very bad light. Obviously, your friend deduced that I had engaged in act of adultery of which I had not. I was completely innocent of any wrongdoing, but that is not, at all, the way that it looked to him!
Is this what happened in real life?
How many people believe that I am guilty of an unsavory act of gross indiscretion, when in fact I am innocent? I care not to imagine. I am sure that it is many, but why am I persecuted? It is not because I preach Jesus Christ? If I had not preached Jesus Christ, then I would have been regarded as nothing more than a scoundrel in your eyes. Yet I did preach Jesus Christ, and for that, I am wrongfully accused as a hypocrite and as a vile beast cloaked in sheep’s clothing seeking to devour your soul … the worst sort of predator that is conceivable! Nothing could be further from the truth!
I have only ever wanted your soul to be saved and to lead you to the water of life. Truly! I would give you anything that I have, save that which would be a sin against God! Of all that God has ever given me in my entire life, what would I not freely give to you if you asked?
My dear friend, God knows my heart, and He knows that I am innocent of such accusations. He, also, knows who it is that poisoned your mind and your heart to make you believe that I was such a predator. In His own time, He will judge accordingly, but God is rich in mercy. We are all sinners before His eyes. We are all worthy of judgement, and that is why Jesus came to the cross. He did it to save sinners, of whom you and I both are.
It does not matter that I have been wrongfully accused. I am more than willing to bear reproach for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I am more that willing to bear reproach for you, Bee! I do not care if my name has been smeared, and I am ready to continue to suffer the loss of all my friends, if it means that your soul can be saved. The heartbreak of lost friends and the loss of my prosperity are a most dreadful pain to suffer, but it is only for a season. I know that when God takes me home to Heaven, He will bless me with friendship, spiritual blessings, and riches far greater than I could ever hope to have here on Earth. As long as I am still here on Earth, I have just one focus for my life:
- It is that you come to know the truth:
- that Jesus Christ is the true Son of God;
- And that He gave His life for the forgiveness of your sins and mine;
- And that Jesus loves you with a pure, a perfect, and an endless love;
- And that I, also, love you with that same pure, perfect, and endless love of Jesus Christ my Savior.
Bee, if you feel that you have wronged me in any way, I have already forgiven you. Yet, I have not only forgiven you, I have forgiven all who have wrongfully entreated me (by intention or by accident, either one).
I pray that someday you will, likewise, forgive me, yet this is far more important for your own sake than it is for mine. I can wait for your forgiveness as long as it need be, but you cannot. Your heart will never truly be free until you are able to forgive me. Forgiveness is the path to understanding true and perfect love, the pure love of God. Absolute truth can never be attained by anyone that is in caught in the trap of an unforgiving spirit. Whenever we harbor bitterness towards anyone, our judgement is clouded with bias and self-righteousness, and hence, we are not able to understand the truth.
The most important thing is for you to understand is that Jesus has forgiven you.
He has forgiven you and I of all our sin, and He has paid the penalty for all your transgressions and mine, also. He has taken every last single bitter thought and deed that you and I have ever had and done and has nailed them to the cross. All that you have to do is to believe that He did it, that you are forgiven in His eyes.
He paid the price with His life blood.
Take of this precious gift of eternal life. He is holding it out to you. The only thing you have to do is to accept it. Receive of His free gift of salvation and you will be free from the bondage of sin. You will be blessed with life eternal.
It is His free gift to everyone who will receive it. He paid it all. He paid the price for every sin. There is no sin that cannot be covered by His shed blood upon the cross.
Bee, I want you to have the water of life. It becomes you. You are incomplete without it. You may think that you have lost the most important thing in your life, but the the reality is that you have yet to receive it. When you take of the water of life, you will find a peace and a joy that passes all understanding. You will be complete.
It is the most important thing in the world right now. I am not saying that just because I love you. I am saying that because it is true according to everything that God has revealed to me. Maybe there is something in this world that is more important that I do not know about, but if there is, God has kept that hidden from me.
In this passage from 2nd Samuel, God is encouraging you, Bee. Just as David was crushed by the death of his son Absalom, your spirit has been crushed also. God is telling you not to be crushed. The kingdom is still yours, my dear friend. It will come to you. It just may not come the way that you thought that it would.
Your grief and your wounds will heal, and God will bless you with greater blessings that you could ever imagine.
God is telling you to put your trust in Him. When you do, He will be your strength. He will enable you to gather yourself together, and He will lead you to overcome every giant. He will bless you with forgiveness and show you how to seek, attain, and give forgiveness and peace of heart. He will bring you into a most pleasant kingdom that is grand beyond your wildest dreams.
What happen to David when he lost his son? David was so depressed and sorrowful that he no longer regarded any of his loved ones, his princes, his councilors, or the people under his rule. God is encouraging you not to do the same thing that David did. You are so beloved by so many people. You do not realize how important it is for people to see your smiling face and to hear the smile in your voice. Indeed, you are an intelligent and an extraordinarily capable person, but your grace and your loving kindness are far more important to those that you work with and those that you share your life with. They rely upon it.
You have no idea how much they need your infectious joy in their lives. Whenever you intreat someone with a forgiving spirit (which I have seen you do many times) it is a most beautiful and healing act of kindness unto a soul that is in desperate need of love. Bee, one word of kindness from your lips is more valuable than all the gold in Fort Knox; it is most precious in the ears of the great many souls of people that love you.
God is asking you to trust in the fact that everything will work out in the end. His ways are so much better than our own. God has a plan for you, Bee! And it is incredible, and it is beautiful! I rejoice exceedingly over the amazing blessings that God has in store for you. You could never, in your most ambitious imaginations, devise a plan that could compare to His plan for you. Trust in Him and He will bless you.
He will replace your tears of sorrow with tears of joy.
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With that, I have a fault that I must make admission to. It has been three weeks since I first started working on this post. It has been a difficult task, involving many hours of prayer, several readings of this post to God in His hearing, and many edits. When I was three days into the editing, God rebuked me very sharply for thinking that I was finished working on this post. There were a few things that I did not understand correctly, and I had to change them after God set me strait on the facts. However, I missed the most obvious thing of all: I need to pay heed to my own council!! Here I am telling you not to be crushed, when I myself am crushed. I have let my worries and my concerns over you get in the way of making the progress that I need to make.
All of my love for you is of no use if I never put it into action. I can minister the truth to you and pray for you, but if I never get out and begin the Quest itself, how can my words of truth and love be regarded as anything other than a novelty? Please forgive me, Bee! At one point, I did understand that fact, but I seemed to have forgotten about it in these last few weeks. If I truly love you, then I must stop fretting over you, and trust that God will take care of you and protect you from the evil one and his scorpions. It is imperative that I focus my efforts on the Quest itself. I can never expect you to truly believe in my love for you, until I prove it through action.
God, help me get my act in gear! For the sake of your name, Father, and the excellent name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, help me make known your love by establishing my purpose, with oars in the water, rubber on the road, and fat tires on the ice and snow. How can Bee know that my love is real by words that I type in my office? How can I lift Bee up upon your excellence, in the sight of the world, unless I am spanning the world? Lead me and set me forth on the path that you have laid before me, Lord! Set me out on this Quest for Bee! I pray in Jesus name! Amen!
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Bee, I think that there is something that you need to understand about me and my love for you. I know that I can never expect the reconciliation our friendship to be realized until you come to fully trust that I will indeed lay down my life for you, in the spirit of this quest to circumnavigate the Earth. That is to say, that I believe that you must be utterly convinced in your heart that I am setting out on this quest, and than nothing will stop me from doing it. I do not know what it will take to do that. Maybe, I would need to row halfway from Singapore to Australia, before you would be convinced … or further still? Perhaps, I would need to be halfway between Tasmania and Antarctica? The point is that I could never expect you to trust that I intend to follow through with my sacrifice for you unless it becomes plainly obvious to you and to everyone that I am in a legitimate position to take on the challenge, and that I am yet still absolutely determined to follow through. I do not want it to be any other way.
If you and I were to reconcile our friendship and I, in turn, did not follow through, how could our friendship continue without strain? There would always be doubt. I could never live with the knowledge that you have that kind of doubt in your mind. At this point, there truly is no other way. I must complete the Quest or die in the attempt. If I fail to begin the Quest or if I fail to complete it and yet live, it will never remove the doubt from your mind.
I understood this before I posted a single word on this Website. I knew that by making the commitment for the Quest that it would eliminate any other possibility for our friendship to be reconciled. I was willing to take that risk, because I believe God, and I believe in you. I believe in the perfect and pure love of God and His infinite love for you. Through you and your presence in my life, God has made His love more real to me than anything I have ever known.
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Soraya, please forgive me. It was not at all in my mind to write about you. It was not my idea. God gave me the dream, God impressed upon me to include it in this post, and He made it all too clear to me that He expected me to post what I had written. I am still rather puzzled as to why God portrayed you as He did in my dream. There must be a reason for it, but I could only guess as to why that would be. It was not in my mind to think of you in that light, nor have I ever done so before. I hope and pray that you do not conclude that I think ill of you. I do not! I am simply obeying the commandment of my Lord and my God. He said to write it, and so I did.
I miss you very much, Soraya. If for any reason you ever meant an advantage over me or meant anything against me, is not important to me. You are my friend. You are our friend. If you need to be forgiven of something that you did or thought to do, I forgive you. I pray that Bee, also, will forgive you, if it need be so. I pray that your disappointment would not last forever and that I would hear from you again . It would be a healing balm to my heart to hear your voice. Your friendship is very important to me. It has always been important to me.
5Open rebuke is better than secret love. 6Faithful are the wounds of a friend; but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful. 7The full soul loatheth an honeycomb; but to the hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet. 8As a bird that wandereth from her nest, so is a man that wandereth from his place. 9Ointment and perfume rejoice the heart: so doth the sweetness of a man’s friend by hearty counsel.
– Proverbs 27:5–9
I pray that our friendship will always be sweet in hearty counsel, faithful, true, and honest. Please know that I pray for you and your loved ones often. I pray that you also would receive of the water of life, that you would accept Jesus’ forgiveness of your sin by His sacrifice on the cross. In fact, I have been praying for you for many years, my friend. God has countless blessings for all who will put their trust in His Son, İsa Mesih.
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Love always to you both!
May you both be bless of God. In Jesus name I pray! Amen!
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Bee, I am praying my heart out for you. I cease not to ask God to give you strength and encouragement and to lead you in truth. 😊
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